God, I can hardly believe it's been 5 years. I was retelling their birth stories this morning while we were getting ready for school and I could swear I felt pangs in my belly, tingling in my breasts. My eyes welled up and the kids wanted to know if I was okay. And the truth is that because of them, I'll always be on this side of okay. No matter what else there is - and in spite of all that there is, because of them, I'm forever whole.